Hey Vestibular Warrior.
I've been thinking about the vibe I want to bring into the New Year. I like that approach more than setting any exact resolution/goal; although, I do have things on my mind. But just setting the tone for myself and the energy I want to carry into 2020 is powerful. Living with vestibular somethings, we often do not know what the next day (or moment) will bring. For me it's been monumental in my life finding my calm in chaos and realizing that the light that will guide me through the ups and downs is within me; it's within my power to create my glowing wellness. Further, that means that I am responsible for taking ownership of my health.
That's a lot to take on when you're journeying with a vestibular condition which creates a general feeling of powerlessness. I know that feeling intimately and it used to be the energy that felt soul-crushing. I was reacting to every symptom, every emotion, every doctor's appointment, every sway/floaty feeling/glitch... you understand.
As we turn the corner into a brand new year, my mission is to continue to create my wellness. It's one thing to say it and another battle to actually follow through. I thought I'd share the pieces of bliss I'm taking into 2020, and I hope it gets you thinking what vibe you want to take with you. After all, while we do not have control over every detail of life, we do have a choice in how we approach it.
uncovering bliss each day
What brings you happiness? What makes your heart happy? What makes your soul sigh relief at the knowledge that there is so much beauty in this world? This may be something you really have to meditate on. When my symptoms were storming my system and I felt like I didn't have a moment of relief, stopping to smell the roses was just not part of my schedule. I was in pure survival mode.
However, something I've realized as I've healed from vestibular neuritis and took control of vestibular migraines, is that uncovering bliss daily is a must. Taking pure pleasure in the small moments that make up this life is not only essential to healing, but a component of what makes up this life. It's the secret that should be screamed. Here are some examples from my life, so you can think on your bliss.
-Interacting with my boys and getting a glimpse of life through their eyes
-Walking the streets of Seattle with a matcha latte and listening to my favorite music playlist
-Dying my hair pink and feeling comfortable in my own skin... even with the occasional sway, migraine or other symptom; always grateful for the progress I've made
-Hearing from a fellow Vestibular Warrior that my book was a light in their day
The key was finding bliss before I was through my vestibular something. I honestly don't know if I'll ever be completely through it, but I refuse to not find the bliss in this life as I journey along.
This is the game changer. This is the one that changed my world. For 21 months I didn't have a solid diagnosis. I had self-diagnosed myself with vestibular neuritis the first year and it wasn't until that one-year mark that I started to piece together the vestibular migraine component. I didn't have a doctor that had provided me any guidance on diagnosis. I was working with a chiropractor that specialized in craniosacral work and another that was a holistic nutritionist. My mission was to heal from the inside out and I decided I didn't need a label for my vestibular something in order to do that.
Where can your mindset shift your reality? I think this is a question we can ask ourselves most days. It's sort of the glass half-full or half-empty conversation. It rings true though that our mindset creates our reality. That's why I call us Vestibular Warriors because it's empowering. It demonstrates our strength and resilience.
A goal of mine this year is to wean off my migraine-preventive medication. Of course I have fear wrapped up in that. But what if I just look at it as an opportunity to get to know myself better? To better pay attention to my body speaking to me. When I need extra support, I'll turn to diet, oils, movement + meditation, the support of vestibular warriors and most importantly my mindset and how it will guide me every step of the way.
release the emotional weight
When I was in the worst of the storm with my vestibular something, there was a lot of emotion and trauma that I just couldn't process in the moment. It's only in looking back over the journey that I see clearer how I was trudging through the motions. Sometimes when you're trudging, it's hard to really feel how an experience is shaping you. That was certainly the case for me. Around two years in I started to find a grounded state. I felt my soul coming back to life and at that point I was finally ready to start opening up about the experience. That inspired my creation of Bliss Out, the Vestibular Warrior YouTube channel and ultimately was my fuel to write my book Uncovering Bliss unfolding my journey.
I say all this to encourage you to process the emotional component of your vestibular something.
Maybe that means sitting in a meditation even when you feel like you're floating away.
Maybe it means opening up to someone (even if just a journal) about your vestibular something and how it makes you feel.
Maybe it means taking part is some sort of therapy (so many kinds out there!) and doing something for you.
My whole purpose and the driving force behind everything I share is that I don't want another Vestibular Warrior to feel alone. I want to spread hope and resilience. I want other Vestibular Warriors to know that this community understands your fears, your heartbreak and pain, but this community also will inspire you to rise up regardless of everything your vestibular something has thrown at you. Listen to this song and then come back to this post.
I run Vestibular Warrior on Facebook which is all about holistic support & mindset to thrive with our vestibular somethings and beyond. I'd love to connect with you.
In the next few months I'll be finishing up my holistic nutrition studies and will be able to call myself a Holistic Nutritionist. The process of jumping back into studying has been as a gift to myself. I believe that food is meant to heal our minds & bodies and help us find our balanced state. In my experience it hasn't been the entire piece of recovering my wellness, but it plays an important role. Embracing a plant-based diet a decade ago changed my life. I literally felt negativity fall away from my essence as I learned to love my body. Also, because I am working on getting off my migraine medication (that I started 21 months in to break the cycle), I know that diet will be ultra important and I plan to keep within my Vestibular Migraine Diet (vegan-friendly version).
The quickest way to change how you feel about yourself is to look at how you're feeding your body and soul. I think it's commonly the last piece we look at to shift our wellness when it should be the very first piece.
I hope that you resonate with this post and I'd love to hear your thoughts. I wish you all the best on your wellness journey as we dance into 2020.
Sending good vibes your way.