Hi out there!

One of the ways I most often connect with other Vestibular Warriors is through sharing the mind and body experience of my vestibular condition.  It's an avenue that I'm incredibly excited about and one you'll be hearing more about very soon (hint: book!).  

I recently shared on my FAQ page the symptoms I experienced during the messy middle of my vestibular condition and vestibular migraine episodes.  Although the beginning and middle were more like a mashup of symptoms that I couldn't make sense of.  Here's a quick glance:

There are many factors that went into play when it comes to my healing from vestibular neuritis and tackling the vestibular migraine episodes.  It certainly wasn't overnight.  That feeling being disconnected from my body and environment- I had to address it in the  moment over and over (and over!) again.  I had to force myself to be in the moment, which as I'm sure you understand is no small task when you feel like you're in the Upside Down aka alternate reality (watch: Stranger Things on Netflix).

​Healing happens on a deep level and it's about nourishing the mind and body, and providing it holistic support every step of the way. 

But in the moment when the dissociative symptoms were flooding my system and I felt disconnected from myself, I needed to develop a plan of action when the symptoms were crashing. 

Keep in mind that this is all based on my personal experience, so please listen to your own body and do what works best for you.  That is always what is most important.  Here's my action plan when the symptoms were at their worst or when I really needed to pull myself back into reality (or at least try!):

MOVEMENT + MEDITATION - Kait Hurley's workouts

I had to get moving and get my mental state in a different place.  I know this is easier said than done.  I started doing yoga-like workouts 18 months in and they were a game changer.  After days, weeks and months I started to feel more grounded in my body.  They still are a huge part of my wellness routine.  I share about Kait Hurley's workouts all the time.  I can roll out of bed and start a workout.  In the beginning, that's exactly what I did every day.  It felt really hard at first.  But it was worth it.  My mind and body says a big thank you!

USING MY BRAIN

I know this is strange to say because we're always using our brain...  Have you tried doing math while being in a derealized state?  It's hard!  I would force my brain to get working and in doing so it would make me feel more present.  Now this was rarely math, but I'd dive into work projects that required me to push beyond the fog.  This took a lot of practice, but with time it got a lot easier.

HOLISTIC SUPPORT

So much goodness to share here!  In the beginning I was going to the chiropractor a few times each week and getting cranial sacral therapy.  Another thing that helped was walking in the grass (barefoot, if possible) and quite literally feeling the earth beneath my feet, letting me know I still was on solid ground even if it didn't feel that way.  A holistic doctor recommended this to me and it was a really good tip and one I need to remember more often.  None of it was an overnight fix, but it provided support.

In the moment, I turned to pure plant oils (and still do every single day).  Nothing like a dab of Peppermint under the nose, on my temples and around my hairline to bring me more into the moment.  It was recommended to me to pair a mantra with an oil blend that I loved.  A reassuring blend (made of Fractionated Coconut Oil, Vetiver Root, Lavender Plant, Ylang Ylang Flower, Frankincense Resin, Clary Sage Flower/Leaf, Marjoram Leaf, Labdanum Leaf/Stalk, Spearmint Herb) spoke to my soul.  I would tell myself I am grounded while rolling the oil on my temples and wrists.  I know it sounds woo-woo, but it was comfort for my heart and soul.  I used my oils hourly as needed and they still play a big role in my wellness.  

WRITING + CONNECTING

This sort of goes along with the brain tip, but letting my emotions flow and connecting with other Vestibular Warriors in support groups in the moment was incredibly helpful.  I could say the words "I feel disconnected" and immediately feel understood.  I didn't start sharing about my experience until close to a year in, but writing became incredibly therapeutic and coming up with the words to describe how I was feeling and sending them out to the universe was healing in itself.  

CREATING MY REALITY

This is a big one.  This is the one that required a mindset shift and work on it each and every day.  Just because I felt disconnected did not mean that I actually was disconnected from my life.  Read that again if you need to.  My point is that I needed to create my world.  So even if it felt awful, it was up to me to make it better.  To find happiness in the small moments and try to laugh each and every day.  To find the light in the dark... This was such a process. 

My last intense attack was over the summer and in a flash I was back behind my window pounding to break free.  I turned to each of the above items to find my way out:

-reaching out (by text) to a Vestibular Warrior who understood and could be a friend by my side
-writing about my experience because I knew sharing would help others
-telling myself that I was ok, saying the mantra "I am safe. I am grounded..."
-following my routine when symptoms intensify with oils
-going for a walk and feeling my feet beneath me

That day, the dizziness did intensify, I threw-up out the passenger door as my husband drove me home (awful, I know) and crawled into my bed.  But within a few hours I came back around and I felt confidence having given it my all and fighting back.  Sometimes that's all we can ask for.

​I hope that you found this helpful.  If you too deal with this symptom (or other VM symptoms), I'm sending love and light your way.  I know how hard it is to go through the motions in that state and I applaud you for showing up.  

You got this.

Em :)

Hi there!

I'm back in the blogging groove and it feels good!  I started a health and wellness blog back in 2013, and used to loved pouring my heart out...rambling basically about running, vegan eats and motherhood.  That was long before the vestibular stuff hit and I had any idea how it would shift my world.  Launching my first site did ignite the fire to connect with others wanting to thrive in this beautiful life though.  That's still my goal with Bliss Out and I believe that glowing wellness is at the heart of it all.  

When it comes to life with vestibular migraines my whole goal is basically not to have vestibular migraines...so essentially life without vestibular migraines.  This takes my being proactive in my wellness routine.  Not waiting for an attack and then figuring out what I'll do, but rather putting myself in a position so that attacks are a lot less likely to happen and if I start to feel symptoms creep, I know I need to step up my game.

I share my full wellness routine and essential oils routine, but today I'm focusing on what I do when I start to feel a light ache.  As if the pain wants to break through, but my body is trying really hard to fight back.  It's a signal to me that things could get a lot worse.

During the 18-months when my symptoms were much more intense, I rarely dealt with any migraine pain (the classic symptom).  To be honest I'd take pain any day over the vestibular symptoms (migraine dizziness, pressure in head and ears, derealization, disconnected/off kilter feelings, nausea).  However, these days (three years later after my initial attack) my symptoms are no longer 24/7 and they do not make a daily appearance.  When I do feel anything, it's generally much more subtle and a sign to me that I need to turn to my holistic toolkit.

Copaiba (the oil I'm using in this clip) is one of the most anti-inflammatory substances on earth and I love it!  It's properties also include antibacterial, antioxidant & antimicrobial.  Good stuff, friends. 

When I feel migraine pain trying to breakthrough, my first step is always to grab a glass of water and my oils. 

-I chug the glass of water (and make sure to stay hydrated) and think through how I want to combat the symptoms and support my body with my oils.  I used to be awful at drinking water and it's something I now know I need to remind myself to do.  "Step away from the latte, Emily.  Water, now!"

-I then use my essential oils throughout the day.  Not just once, but generally every hour.  Copaiba essential oils (certified pure therapeutic grade oil, only!) can be used topically and taken internally.  This oil's properties combat pain and inflammation therefore helping with headaches and migraines.  I take two drops of the oil in a veggie capsule every 3-4 hours (or use the softgels depending what I have on hand at the moment).  I use the roller bottle every hour applyint it to my temples, forehead and back of my neck.  [I added Adaptiv oil blend to my roller bottle as well for all the calming vibes]

Three years ago I knew close to nothing about essential oils.  I had no idea how to use them or how they could support my glowing wellness.  

Today they are the main component in my wellness routine, along with a plant-based diet and exercise, when it comes to thriving in this life with vestibular migraines- and BEYOND. 

​My mission is to basically lead a life without vestibular migraines.  That would be the ideal vestibular migraine life.  That makes sense, right? ;)

Oils are certainly not the only thing I depend on to support my health and help me maintain my balanced state.  If you feel drawn towards oils, visit my other resources and please reach out to me with questions.

Vestibular Warrior Oils Routine

My Routine During a Vestibular Migraine Attack [to thrive!]

Below are several other vestibular migraine natural treatments that I embrace to promote vibrant health:

Vestibular Migraine Prevention Diet [my version is vegan!]

move + meditate workouts

I hope that you have a wonderful day!

Em :)

Hi there!

It's been a week of reflecting over the last three years over here.  Today marks three years since vestibular neuritis hit, which triggered a cycle of vestibular migraines, none of which I could make sense of or understand in the beginning.  Everything is only so much clearer in retrospect.  I shared an episode today on the Bliss Out Vibes podcast talking about the power that we hold when it comes to our healing.  I also tell a story about an experience with a doctor that felt soul-crushing at the time, but created the shift I needed to keep showing up and relentlessly pushing forward.  

I'm sharing my story so that someone sitting in their beginning with vestibular neuritis or vestibular migraines is given a piece of hope.  So they know that they are not alone even though vestibular conditions can feel so isolating.  I'm sharing because three years ago I needed to hear someone else's story to help me find the light in mine, and I have since connected with many incredible Vestibular Warriors who have been such a light in my life.  It's a gift that I want to give back.  

I'm going to share what the last three years looked like merely to paint a picture of what healing has been for me.  Of course our stories will be different and just because my story looks a certain way doesn't mean it's right or wrong, it's just how the path unfolded for me.  I'm still traveling along that path.  I can gratefully say that I've recovered my wellness and continuing to do everything I can to promote vibrant health.

I went to many doctors before the term vestibular neuritis was said to me.  It was a physical therapist who stated that it probably was what I was dealing with, but I had come across the term on the internet prior to meeting with her.  The symptoms made sense and I so badly wanted to put a label on what I was experiencing.  My youngest was three months old when it hit.  I was full of so much love and so thankful for my beautiful baby while simultaneously feeling stuck in the darkness of my vestibular something searching for answers.   [For more information on vestibular neuritis, visit here]

Around a year in, I felt like I had climbed a huge mountain.  The floating feeling had faded along with the mental fatigue.  I was feeling so much more like myself; although, changed from the experience (I talk about mindset (our superpower) in my e-book Vestibular Warrior).  My symptoms became more erratic though, with ups and downs that I couldn't make sense of.  I'd have days of feeling 80% better and then I'd get swarmed with symptoms.  I started talking more with other Vestibular Warriors and a fellow mom mentioned to me that my symptoms seemed a lot like what she was dealing with, which was vestibular migraines.

It all started to make sense... the periods of feeling better (not 100%, but so close) and then unexpected regressions as I had called them.  The vestibular migraine label fit and so I started working to address that. [For more information on vestibular migraines, visit here]

My main symptoms included:
-derealization, like I was looking at my life from behind a window
-my eyes not wanting to focus, more intensely during episodes
-out of the blue anxiety attack
-like I was walking on a trampoline during attacks
-nausea + dizziness during an attack
-rarely any migraine pain

Nourishing plant-based diet, supplements, essential oils, move + meditate workouts, chiropractic adjustments, running (eventually)... it all became so important to maintain my wellness and continue to heal during the second year.  Diet + essential oils are still, and always will be, a crucial part of my everyday wellness routine to thrive.  I started a migraine-preventive medicine 19 months in that broke the constant cycle of attacks that happened weekly.  That's a whole other story though that I share here.  

I hit 100% around the two-year mark and have enjoyed the last year with a gratitude that cannot be explained.  I haven't been completely symptom free, but they only make an occasional appearance these days.  I had three intense episodes in the last year that I was able to dig myself out of within the day. 

It's felt like the greatest gift and I'm reminded of that gift - the grounded, balanced state - every day.

As I mentioned in a recent post, I'm working to wean off the migraine medicine.  I believe in holistic health and I want to give my body the opportunity to find its balance.  It's going to be a process and something I will share here.  

HOLISTIC NUTRITION

I'm back in school studying holistic nutrition all inspired by my journey with a vestibular something.  I want to be deeply in touch with the art of healing.

SHARING THE OILS LIFE

I'm sharing the essential oils life because it's been such a happy place even in the darkness of the vestibular stuff.  I love giving others the gift of owning their wellness through a holistic toolkit.

OWNING OUR WELLNESS

I want to be a part of the empowered movement for all of us living with a vestibular condition to take ownership of our wellness.  The movement already exists which is evident, but so many are still lost in the darkness.  There was a time that I was sinking in it.

​We all deserve to find light.

This three-year anniversary marks a year of finding my balance and making life shifts in the direction of my choosing. 

I want this next year to be a deeper focus on holistic health and what that means not only for me, but all of us Vestibular Warriors embracing life and embodying  glowing wellness- with a vestibular condition and beyond.  It's a beautiful thing.

I hope this post finds you well.  But please know, that if you are in your beginning with vestibular neuritis, vestibular migraines, or another vestibular condition, and feeling utterly lost, just know that your beginning is a beautiful place to start.

​Em :)

Hi hi!

I promised I'd be back to document the process of weaning off my migraine medication.  If you haven't read my first post, stop by here first.  It's only been a month, so while that's not a long period of time, it's a start.  Got to start somewhere, right? 

This post is about what I'm doing to level up my holistic support game as I wean off the migraine-preventive medication.  I know that the weaning process can cause symptoms and side effects and I'm trying to make this transition as blissful as possible.  I'm really excited to have developed a routine.  It certainly gives me confidence as well as mind & body support as I tackle this this next path in my vestibular journey.  

I am a lover of pure plant essential oils.  That's no secret.  I started using oils in the months after I was diagnosed with vestibular neuritis, and three years later, I've never looked back.  It has been one of the best decisions I've made for my wellness, especially in the throes of healing from a hellish vestibular condition.  

I'm going to share the main holistic support I'm focusing on right now.  My plan is to meet with a new neurologist soon and (hopefully) gain some insight on decreasing my dosage slowly but surely.  If you're finding this post and wanting to do the same, awesome!  Let's embark on this journey together.  I recommend that you work with your doctor on the best way to wean off your particular migraine medication and the dosage decrease that you should follow.  Then it's up to you to implement the beautiful holistic goodness to support YOU. 

Ok, here I go!​ 

ADAPTIV CALMING BLEND CAPSULES:
made of:  blend of CPTG essential oils Lavender, Coriander, Wild Orange, and Fennel along with Sceletium, GABA, and Ahiflower.  [note: GABA, helps promote relaxation.]
benefits:  calms and promotes positive feelings; supports mood and helps improve state of mind; helps when acclimating to new surroundings and adapting to stressful situations; encourages relaxation; supports cognitive function and emotional balance; promotes mental well-being
how to: I take one Adaptiv Calming Blend Capsule daily to combat stress, tension, and occasional anxious feelings

ADAPTIV TOUCH (OIL BLEND): 
made of:  pure plant oils- Wild Orange, Lavender, Copaiba, Spearmint, Magnolia, Rosemary, Neroli, and Sweetgum in a base of Fractionated Coconut Oil
benefits: helps boost mood; assists in centering; increases feelings of tranquility; soothes and uplifts; reduces feelings of anxiousness and tension
how to:  I apply the roller to pulse points to help with feelings of balance; massage on my shoulders and neck to ease tension and relieve fatigue; and apply to hands, rub together, and inhale deeply as needed throughout the day; and roll on wrists and temples whenever I feel the need to gain composure quickly

TURMERIC CAPSULES:
made of: synergy of tumerones and curcuminoids, in order to maximize the effectiveness and benefits of both compounds for a healthy inflammatory response
benefits: combines the complementary benefits of both turmeric essential oil with the joint support of the curcuminoids of turmeric extract in a unique and convenient delivery system; helps support a healthy inflammatory response in the body (yes, please!)
how to:  I take a capsule (with Copaiba described below) before bed.  If I'm feeling a headache upon waking, I take a capsule in the morning as well

COPAIBA SOFTGELS:
made of:  copaiba resin
benefits:  powerful antioxidant; soothes and supports the nervous system
how to:  I take one softgel as needed, most often before bed with Turmeric capsule [note: I also take Copaiba if symptoms intensify, especially during a vestibular migraine attack]

PEPPERMINT OIL:
made of:  pure plant peppermint!
benefits: soothes/combats headache; invigorating; soothes stomach upset
how to:  I apply Peppermint to my temples when I first wake-up in the morning, and as needed all throughout the day.  It's my BFF oil ;)

The awesome thing about oils is although I'm using them to cater to my personal needs at this stage, they also support my overall glowing health.  I love that!  

I hope that you find this helpful and of course reach out if you have any questions!  

Also, if you want to join in the fun, I've included a link below that makes it simple for you to purchase each of the products I describe above (and any other oils you may be excited about!).  Note, doTERRA ships around the world, so if your home is outside the US, shoot me a quick message here and I'll help you order.  Upon ordering, you'll also receive a note and little gift from me.  Let me know if you're a Vestibular [and/or Migraine] Warrior too- I'd love to connect with you!  Be sure to visit the Vestibular Warrior Wellness Hub.

Sending happy vibes your way!!  See you next month with another update.

​Em :)

In my opinion the medication only helped me go from 90% to 100% (most days) because my holistic game was so strong.  As I talk about in my 3-year update video, I have to keep up with my migraine diet (vegan by choice), supplements and holistic wellness routine.  The medication is just a piece of the puzzle, but I'll always put out there the reminder that it wasn't the thing that got me to 90%. 

It was the hammer that smashed my window.

I want to wean off the medication because I feel like I'm at a place in my life where I'm ready.  I've spent the last fifteen months on it and I've only had three more intense attacks, all of which I pulled myself through within the day.  That fact has been incredibly empowering.  The attacks did not take over my week.  They were a pronounced reminder of how much power I have in taking ownership of my wellness and my life.

Want the honest truth, though?  I want to prove to myself that I can do this holistically.  I deeply believe that we are meant to thrive in this life.  Our bodies are meant to heal and we are meant to feel that deep bliss that radiates from the soul.

Also, I don't know the consequences of being on the medication long-term, because while I'm thankful for the balance the medicine has assisted with, what if it's hurting my body in other ways?  I think about that stuff.

I remember saying out loud I'd rather lose my arm than go through this.  That's not a fair statement to say and I know that now, but in the throes of the vestibular hell I was angry...but that was really just a cover for the sadness.   And in the darkest moments the derealization was so intense I felt like I was losing my grip on reality.  What if I fall into the darkness?

​One of the things I encounter most when talking with other vestibular warriors is the feeling of desperation.  I know that feeling intimately.  I have a clear memory of the time that I was driving and I felt the anxiety spike.  That raging anxiety that warned me the vestibular storm was on its way.  I safely pulled over in a parking lot and got out of the car.  Sure enough my world was off kilter and I no longer was connected to the body that was apparently mine.  The tears starting falling as I tried to spatially gather my surroundings.  All I felt was overwhelming fear and desperation.  That's the dark part of that story.

The light is that I did gather myself even though I was rattled to my core.  I showed up that day like nothing had happened and I somehow made it through.  And because I did that, I looked that desperation in the eye.  The fear didn't disappear that day, but it also didn't define me.  So when people ask me about conquering that feeling of despair, I'm honest. 

​Feel it and acknowledge it, but figure out how to walk beside it.  Because the more you walk beside it, the more you'll realize it's actually slipping behind as you move forward. 

If you are in the beginning or messy middle with a vestibular something and questioning if healing is possible, I'm here to argue that it is. 

I can't tell you what that looks like for you, but I believe to my core that it is completely possible.  Healing involves the mind, body, soul and everything in between.  If you feel broken right now, it's time to look at this as an opportunity to put the pieces - everything that makes up you - where you want them.

Vestibular conditions are complicated and our treatments may vary, but when it comes to healing the heartbreak and pain, I think we get each other completely.  I think so many of us can relate to one another on that bumpy trail.  We are simultaneously walking trails that are intertwined and when our paths cross, it's a sigh of relief that someone else is also out on the trail.

My heart tells me that I must share so that others on the trail know they are not alone.  

My mind imagines a movement of all of us taking back our wellness.

And my soul knows that we are meant to thrive in this beautiful life- with a vestibular something and beyond.

Vestibular Warrior Resources // YouTube Videos [Vestibular Warrior] // Oils Routine for Vestibular Warriors // Contact Em

Migraine Vegan Diet // Plant-based diet: YouTube video}

Our food choices have the power to make huge shifts  in our bodies + our world.

Eliminating the junk, gives the body the opportunity to free itself of that weight, both emotionally and physically, and as a result, it can heal, flourish + thrive.
 
Food is freaking fantastic.  It fuels us and quite literally provides us with the sustenance of our being.  It is the nourishment and first line of defense against disease.  It plays a role in our physical and emotional quality of life and is essential to our wellness.  I am an inspired advocate of a plant-based diet; however, the basis for that is whole, from the earth, foods.  I will immediately credit a large part of my ability to heal with a vestibular condition to the way I was eating.  In my mind, there’s no doubt about  it.  I know in my soul that it pulled me up and out and gave me the energy to push forward.   

Admittedly, I didn’t have much of an appetite in the beginning.  When you’re world is off kilter and walking is a huge task, my appetite certainly wasn’t vibrant.  I drank a lot of smoothies (and continue to).  It was a way for me to simply pack in nutrition when functioning was a battle of its own.

I first embraced a plant-based diet in 2009, which changed my world, my perspective, how I felt about myself, and at the same time released me of so much negativity.  It certainly didn't happen overnight, but looking back over the last decade I can very easily point out that making that shift was
the catalyst for so much goodness.

I once received a comment how my plant-based diet didn’t stop me from getting hit with vestibular neuritis.  That hurt my heart (a lot), mostly because a vestibular disorder is damaging enough, and adding guilt on top of it was like a pile of bricks on my soul. 

But that’s correct, it didn’t stop it from happening, but man did it fuel me to stand back up, fight onward, and conquer.

Even though I was eating a plant-based diet when it all happened, I still needed to make tweaks.  It’s about really listening and paying attention to the feedback your body is giving you.  You may find that certain foods are triggers for symptoms (read: Migraine Vegan Diet) and therefore, they are not helping your body. 

That doesn’t mean you need to say goodbye to those foods forever.  As far as triggering foods, we are all different.  Many with vestibular migraines find they need to stay clear of coffee, chocolate, dairy, citrus, white sugar, gluten and processed foods.  To be honest, I believe eliminating dairy, white sugar and excess processed foods can help everyone elevate their wellness. 

Through working with a holistic doctor, I learned that sugar was feeding the problem inside me, so there was a period of time that I was more restrictive.  There was a solid six months that I avoided gluten, white sugar, processed foods, along with keeping within my plant-based framework. 

Was it hard at times?  You bet.  Was it worth it?  Absolutely. 

The food you eat will influence how you feel tomorrow and beyond, how you think, how you heal, and how you move forward.  When I was in the midst of it, I did not have the luxury to eat whatever my heart desired, but as I started to feel better, what I desired was simply nourishing food.  It might start out difficult, but then it becomes a habit, and then it is a part of you. 
​
Then, it becomes a part of your beautiful wellbeing. ​

The anxiety that came with a vestibular condition could (and often did) bring me to my knees.

Crumbling on my bedroom floor because it just felt so heavy.

Panic attacks in the bathroom at work and then coming out with a smile on my face like everything was fine.

Learning to power through when my system felt like it was on fire.

Uncovering how I could calm my mind + body and fight back.

Vestibular disorders are intertwined with anxiety and distinguishing the condition from the panic is a fruitless task.  But, the anxiety was crippling.  Or was that just the vestibular condition?  My point is that it's all mixed together and that's an important piece to remember, because it felt like a cop-out when a  doctor tried to simply say that I was just dealing with anxiety.  I've connected with many other vestibular warriors who have been told that it's just anxiety too.

But anxiety is a symptom, and an all-consuming one at that.​

The first year with vestibular neuritis was as if my body was in a constant state of alarm.  I once had a chiropractor (that I highly respect) tell me that my body was in a state of trauma.  Those words were comforting because in that moment that is exactly how it felt.  

My body was distressed and the heartache that came with that only heightened the panic.

There were a number of things that I started incorporating into my wellness routine to get on top of the anxiety and it all helped so much.  Was it an immediate fix?  No.  It took dedication and developing a wellness routine that would become the foundation of my healing.  

If you feel that the anxiety is taking control of your wellbeing, I hear you.  I had to look it in the eye.  I even sat with it in meditation which felt like I had just stepped out into a hail storm with no warning.  But once I felt it, I knew what I was working with.  I was determined to take back my control, and that's exactly what I did.

There were many instances of what felt like ten steps forward and then five steps back.  Forward is forward regardless of the pace though. 

I used essential oils every day to support my wellness.  I used them proactively and in the moment with symptoms.  There are many oils that I use (and I share lots on Instagram), so please know that I'm only discussing a few favorites below.

​Lavender is one of my favorites.  Rolling it on my temples when I felt a spike, inhaling it from my hands to intake some calm, and applying it to my feet bottoms (diluted) before bed to support overall health.

I longed to feel grounded.  I quite literally visualized what it would feel like to feel grounded in my body.  I listened to a chiropractor who told me to stand in the grass and imagine a grounded state.  I daydreamed about it.  Dreamy, right?

Onto the next: 

The Balance blend spoke to me on an emotional level.  Its properties are everything I was seeking.  I started my day be rolling it on my feet bottoms and dabbing it on my wrists and taking in its goodness.  I started to build an association with it and it became my oh so lovely grounded friend.

When anxiety was streaming, I knew I needed to uplift my mental state.  It's so easy to get caught in its force, so it took work to shift my state.  I used Wild Orange in my home to set the stage.

For me, fear was anxiety's buddy.  And that's a big weight to lift.  Because remember anxiety was just one factor of the vestibular condition.  So I truly needed to balance my energy and create the calm + happy environment outside that I longed for inside.  I'd diffuse Wild Orange (or Balance, Lavender or another oil) to shift the energy in my home and elicit that beautiful emotional response.  

I'd sit with the diffuser pumping, letting my system rage, Balance on my feet bottoms, and Lavender behind my ears... that's a whole lot of fight.  And amongst the storm, I'd find my happy calm.

That's why I love oils.  They're empowering and a strong player in my support system.

Oils are certainly not the whole story.

Foam rolling, move + meditate sessions (up to 5x/week in some periods), magnesium drinks, supplements, water, healing foods, connecting with others, and eventually running the trails which opened my soul and released so much tension...

I think it starts with making small shifts that are impactful and filled with hope. 

Create the calm that you crave.

I started sharing about oils because they were making a difference in my world and a light in my dark.  I'm here to support you along your path, too.  

Dear Vestibular Warrior,

​I know there’s a part of me that you understand completely because you’ve been in the same all-consuming moments that come with vestibular stuff.  You’ve probably had moments where you felt so out of control of what was happening to your body, and that may have left you feeling entirely powerless. 

I hope that you’ve discovered that you are certainly not powerless.  You are magnificent and relentlessly fighting back.  I know this because just the fact that we're connecting means you care big time, and you’re striving to feel better... to feel like you.

The truth is that there's a lot of variety with vestibular conditions.  At the same time there's a string running through it all, so even if my experience isn't identical to yours, there's certainly a resemblance. 

Vestibular stuff disconnects us from the world in so many ways.  Sort of ironic because in the same sense, it's connected you and I. 

The more I talk with other vestibular warriors, the more I realize that so many of our stories have the same chapters:  trying to get a diagnosis, finding a doctor that gets it, handling the anxiety, coping with the fact that most people won't understand what it's like, figuring out what helps and what hurts, uncovering strength we didn't know existed, finding gratitude that only comes with climbing tough mountains... the list goes on.  

One of the first doctors I saw after the initial intense attack told me that I could feel like this for a month.  In that moment, that thought crushed me.  How could this last a month?  How would I get through...?  I laugh as I type this because what I didn't know then was that symptoms would be 24/7 for much longer than a month...it was close to 15 months before I truly touched "normalcy".  And I feel beyond lucky that I can say that.  I know that's not the reality for many.

I believe that gaining a soulful perspective on how I wanted to feel was my guiding light.  I know in the beginning it was "I want to feel how I used to".  But, over time that evolved into, I just want to feel grounded in this body that's fought like hell for me.  I didn't want to go back to before,  because I believe I became more "me" having gone through this experience.  I had walked an incredibly bumpy trail and gotten to the  other side of mountain... No way I was going back to the start. 

I eat foods that fuel and nourish my wellness and I believe in the power of food as medicine.  For me, that's a plant-based diet.  There was a period I even questioned my vegan diet- something I'd embraced 10 years earlier (read this post, if that interests you).  I use essential oils, which was a bit daunting when I was brand new to them, but quickly turned into something that helped me heal and support my body both emotionally and physically.  That's my supportive system, but certainly not the entire picture.

I know that putting my diet at the forefront and having a holistic support system was a huge step in a beautiful direction.  Like I was walking along the trail for days with rain pouring down and someone walked up next to me with an umbrella... and a  muffin.  That's why I share all I do-  I'm just passing out umbrellas and muffins on the trail.  You get me, right?

Hi out there!  How are you today?  I know you can't really answer, but I would love to hear from you.  
I made a decision this weekend.  My heart feels ready and my soul is just bursting to open up.  So, I'm going to share my journey with a vestibular condition - the full story (eventually, over several posts).  I want to put the twists and turns in writing, not only for myself, but for all the vestibular warriors out there.  And even if you aren't dealing with a vestibular "something", we all have life events that are monumental.  That shape us and we come out changed.  I'm sharing because it's been such a profound journey of getting to know, well, myself.  I want to put hope and inspiration out to the universe and to anyone who needs it, because that's what I so desperately needed 861 days ago when it all started. 

861 days ago as I sat on the couch in my family room barely able to keep me eyes focused without a concerted effort and the world floating beneath me, I needed someone to look me in my lost eyes and say:

This is going to be really, really hard and it's going to test you on every level.  There will be days that you'll get through just by focusing on the moments.  But, you will uncover true beauty in this life.  You will cry and have hopeless moments too, but you will get up after every fall, and you will get through this.  And then you will uncover all that makes up you, and you'll be thankful for this mountain that shifted your perspective and encouraged you to uncover your bliss.

And if that's what you needed to hear right now, I'm so glad that we've connected.   

​A part of me wishes I had been more open about it back when I was truly in the throes of it, but ultimately I know I wasn't ready... or able to.  I was so lost and scared as to what I could say.  I didn't want to admit to myself (yet) what was unfolding.  I had no answers as to what I was dealing with and barely knew what I'd feel like one moment to the next.  Google searches were more helpful than any doctor I'd talked to. 

​But, somewhere in the thick of it, I knew I'd relentlessly push forward.  I had no clue what that would look like, but my blind hope was all I could grasp onto.

[Note, I'm going to skim many details, only because I share my whole story: here.]

On October 31, 2016, I was hit with vestibular neuritis, which triggered a cycle of vestibular migraines with no relief in between- 24/7 symptoms. I had just returned to work earlier that month from maternity leave.  My boys were two and 3-months old.  There are so many details that blur together that first year, but that first week I remember so clearly.

Crawling around my house because walking was impossible.  If I did walk, I was holding the walls because spatially I was disconnected from myself. 

My husband gently placing our newborn in my arms so I could feed him.  I remember quietly sobbing as I fed him so thankful for his love and so sad because in many ways I felt like I was missing out.

Seeing multiple doctors and trying to make it clear what had happened and how I felt.  And I remember being angry with the world when I realized that no doctor was going to fix me, or even understand my situation.    

I remember being incredibly scared and without answers.

I looked at my two boys and husband, who of course could not understand how terrible I felt, how disconnected I was from the body I was sitting in, and how disorienting the world was around me.  The honest truth is unless you've experienced a vestibular something, you can't truly understand it.  And I'm glad for that, because I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

861 days ago was a beautiful time in my life that became bombarded with really tough stuff.  It was actually sort of a bizarre experience going back through my phone this weekend searching for photos from that time period 2+ years ago, mainly because I didn't really want to see what I looked like.  Although I didn't find many photos of myself from that time, most of the ones I did were of me smiling.  Smiling?  That surprised me.  Vestibular stuff often feels very dreamlike and in my worst moments I wondered if by some miracle I was dreaming and would wake up from this nightmare.  

I look at this picture (below) of my youngest and I, which I took a few months in, and I'm reminded how much love and goodness I had looking me in the eyes and saying: you CAN do this and you WILL do this.  I had gone to the hairdresser to get my hair highlighted believing that if I looked put together on the outside, maybe the rest of me would catch up... in time.

One of the biggest factors with vestibular conditions is that they are invisible to the world. 

I could be standing in the grocery store barely handling the blaring lights, feeling like I was swaying on a moving dock to the waves, my eyes working overtime to make the world stay in place, and full body anxiety coursing like fire to my system, and the lady behind me could compliment me on how put-together I looked with my two little boys.  In moments like that I could only smile back, but later cry in the shower because keeping up a façade of "I'm totally ok" is exhausting and soul crushing.

But, pretending I was ok long before I truly was also saved me in a really big way.  More on that in a future post...

As I recount these details, I'm bursting with gratitude at the progress I've made over the last 861 days.  Yesterday was a 99.9% better day.  Let's just call it a 100 because why not?  One hundred percent feeling-amazing-day and mind + body bliss.  And I have lots of those kind of days... now.  Most, actually.  

I was at the library with my husband and boys and they were playing on the computers.  I stepped away for a moment and stood in the middle of the kids section just taking in my world,  how beautifully steady it was and how the sun shining through the windows felt freaking fantastic.  My husband looked over and laughed understanding what I was doing.  He's well aware of my stopping to take in my settings and how I'm feeling.  There was certainly a time when I never paused to truly take in my surroundings because how it felt was beyond awful, and I couldn't emotionally go there. 

​There's a lot for me to share on what got me to this point from 861 days ago, and I promise I will.  I will pour out my heart and soul and together we will elevate our wellness.

I believe that we can heal from the inside out.  It's not instantaneous by any stretch and it takes patience and time.  It doesn't necessary mean we're exactly the same as we once were.  But healing from the inside out is empowering and lifechanging.  What if we shifted our perspective and looked just at how we've progressed? 

I'm a huge believer in holistic wellness and a plant-based diet.  I also believe that western medicine is a beautiful thing when used appropriately, and finding a doctor that finally understood my situation (18 months in by the way) was a wonderful thing.

861 days ago was the fresh start I didn't know would happen.  And I certainly had no idea I'd be grateful for it.

Wherever this post finds you, whether it's top of the mountain or at the bottom looking up, let's come together and help each other climb.

I'm just getting started.  I'll be back soon!

​Em :)

{p.s. I created a new Instagram account where I'll be share all things vestibular stuff, from healing, food, supplements, holistic support, mindset... & beyond.  I'd love to connect!}

Hi hi!

Today I'm sharing my go-to smoothie recipe that I make basically every day during the work week.  The weekends are for pancakes (LOVE this recipe), but often I end up having a smoothie as an early lunch or post workout.  I try to drink water first thing in the morning and then a smoothie gets me through the next few hours feeling energized and fueled.  It tastes like dessert which I'm a big fan off, especially when that dessert is packed with nourishing goodness.

I started making smoothies close to 10 years ago and I used a $15 blender which got the job done.  I say that because you do not need an expensive blender to make a smoothie.  Also, if you happen to have a love for Starbucks frappuccinos (like myself), but not so much the cost of one, you're going to enjoy this recipe.

It's plant powered for your beautiful mind & body.  

Swap out the ingredients and make it how it works for you!  If you're new to essential oils, I encourage you to hop over here to learn the basics.  Peppermint essential oil supports happy digestion and as the blender is running I'll dab it on the back of my neck to energize my body.  This oil is also my BFF when it comes to migraine support.

Ok, go grab your blender!  Let me know what you think.

​Em :) 

Hi there!

How's your day?  I'll imagine that we're talking over coffee (or tea)… but lately I've been all about this chai latte.

Today I'm chatting about supplements and there is A LOT of information out there and even more supplements on the market.  My focus is going to be on why I supplement and what supplements I'm a proponent of.  I also have a corner on Bliss Out dedicated to supplement goodness and why I think they are key to superhero status.  I promise it will all make sense soon.

I believe in taking supplements because every day we face many hurdles to our health + wellness:

If we do not meet our daily nutrition requirements this can lead to problems, or make existing problems worse. 

That's the part I want you to focus on. 

Dealing with a chronic condition (hey, vestibular migraines) is a mountain of its own.  But if there is something lacking in my diet (which by the way can happen even if I eat "perfect") or I'm exposed to something in my environment that I'm unaware of, or a multitude of other possibilities in today's world, I wanted to make sure I am giving my body all the love and support I can.  I am not willing to chance it because there’s a very good chance that my needs are not being met simply by eating a healthy diet. 

Does a nutrient dense diet filled with nourishing whole foods help?  Absolutely!  I look at food as the first line of defense, always.   ​

So I supplement to promote overall wellness and address personal health issues.  I want to know that I am doing everything I can to nourish my body.  Because this is my body – the only one I got – and I deserve to feel better than just ok, I deserve to glow.  And my friend, so do you.

When I got hit with vestibular neuritis, I wasn’t supplementing consistently.  I started to do my own research (countless hours looking for answers) and as I took a look at my holistic approach, I felt there was a hole.  Enter: supplementation.

I’m going to share with you the supplements I take and tell you why, and then I ask that you take a look at your current wellness routine and determine whether it could use a boost.  This is about uncovering what is best for you and to do that, you have to consider how you’re nourishing your body now, and what shifts may be needed.  

And I hope that by opening this conversation, this space provides a hub of support for you.  Whether you're currently supplementing or not, I hope you're curious.  Don't just take it from me, I encourage you to do your own research.  If you're really interested, here's an excellent e-book on the supplements that I believe create the bliss.
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​Lifelong Vitality Supplements (LLV)- don't they just sound happy?  I became a wellness mentor and aligned with doTERRA because I believe in the mission of the company: providing beautiful holistic support.  I've also been supplementing with LLV for over two years now and fought my way through a vestibular condition and beyond.  I look as supplements as beautiful support.  And I needed a whole lot of that.  Life is packed with twists and turns, and I want to be guarded and geared along the way.  I know supplements aren't the answer to everything, but I also know they are an incredible tool to level up wellness.  

I share all the details of Lifelong Vitality over here, but please do not hesitate to reach out with any questions.

I feel like I would be doing you a disservice if I didn't mention probiotics.  So much of our health resonates from the gut.  Improving gut health can make huge shifts in overall health and wellness.  

I think one of the most interesting things I learned on this topic was that anxiety and depression can stem from gut health (or lack thereof really).  That made me think, and think more.  And then really consider what I could do to support and cultivate a healthy gut.  I take a probiotic every day before bed (and so does my husband and kids (my boys take the kid version)).    

I do not think that doTERRA supplements are the only amazing supplements on the market, but I believe in them because of their quality, purity and wholefood based nourishment.  

I also have a obsession with my vegan guru, Alicia Silverstone.  After all, she did change my life almost 10 years ago.  She recently launched MyKind Organics and I'm so happy about it.  My boys love the gummies and sprays.  We all use the B-12 organic spray, and I interchange the women's supplement with Lifelong Vitality Pack.  I mention this brand because I adore Alicia's mission and I believe in these supplements.  They are pure plant power and organic.  I trust this brand for my boys.  Check it out for yourself.  (Note, that I order all my MyKind supplements from Thrive- that link will get you a discount!)

I haven’t figured you out completely.  Most days I feel pretty spectacular, but you still make an appearance.  Last week you showed up and really scared me.  I surprised myself with how quickly I recovered from your attack, but you rattled me to the core.  

It’s strange because I hate you, but you also changed my life in a beautiful way.  Battling a chronic invisible condition leaves its mark.  I’ve grown in ways that I’m so proud of and I have become ‘more me’ through the process.  You inspired me to help other people also dealing with you and figuring out life with a vestibular something.  I thank you for that.  The more of us that root for each other, advocate for one another and share our experiences, the more that will overcome you.  You’ll be a memory of what we rose above.  The mountain we climbed to see the magnificent view.  

I’m a Vestibular Warrior and you get some credit for that.  You’re a part of my story, but you’re not my whole story.  I like to think of you as my fresh beginning.  Really rocky start (thanks to you), but I’ll be the one journeying somewhere much more beautiful. 

From, 
a Vestibular Warrior

Hey hey!

I'm back for week two of the fuel my soul series.  Yeah!!  This completely gives the opportunity to reflect on the things that fueled my wellness, heart + soul this week (and I hope you too).  It's been a good week, with the interesting event of having a vestibular migraine attack- the first intense one in seven months.  It sort of feels like it didn't happen though because my body has lovingly bounced back very fast and I'm so grateful for that.  The problem with the intensity of attacks is that the mind does not forget so quickly because it is traumatic.  I've been extra kind to my mind + body this week, which I'll share below.  So, let's get to it.  Here are the five things that fueled my soul this week.​

I shared the details of my vestibular migraine attack the following day, but now a few days later, it's easier to really reflect on it.  I felt the symptoms hit in the early afternoon that day and by night time I was close to back to my 'normal' self.  What a whirlwind that filled that period of time though.  As I type this post, I feel fantastic, except for being a bit tired.  I've spent the last few days listening to how my body is feeling- really listening. 

I did a move + meditate workout today and for the 15 minute meditation part, I just sat and listened.  I listened to the thoughts that stood boldly in the forefront of my mind and how my body was feeling.  It's amazing what comes forward when I stop and listen.  Life is noisy and making light movement and meditation a priority in my life has been one of the greatest things I've done for myself.  

If you're life feels cluttered and your mind on overdrive, I encourage you to take a few minutes to sit still.  Feel the emotions and what your  body is saying to you.  Our bodies let us know what it needs, it's just a matter of clearing space to effectively listen in.

My natural toolkit has been huge support this week.  I'm constantly amazed that just a few years ago, I knew so little about oils, and now they play a large role in my wellness.  I've been doing some reading about taking my self-care routines up a notch.  I do think this latest migraine attack correlated with my cycle (as I'm sure many women can relate) and this is a topic I'm very interested in.  So I've been looking into using oils to support hormonal balance.  It's not just that I used oils during the migraine attack though, it's all the moments around then too.  This morning I took Lemongrass + Turmeric essential oil in a capsule and it made my heart so happy to have this support in my life.  Lemongrass is electrifying, regenerating and purifying, and turmeric is healing on a number of levels, so I'm excited to incorporate the two oils daily.  And that Wild Orange I'm holding is fantastic for diffusing in my home: uplifting, invigorated and renewing.  I'll take all those blissful vibes, thank you.

I had a call with a fellow Vestibular Warrior this week and it was such a happy thing for me.  I know there are many people dealing with a vestibular condition, but it's still the type of thing that feels very isolating.  I think we all can relate to that feeling on some level though.  She and I talked on FaceTime and there in front of me was another person battling vestibular migraines and pushing forward to flourish + thrive in this beautiful life.  We talked about our symptoms, what doctors had told us, and we laughed at how similar our experiences were.  I'm further along so I was able to provide hope + inspiration that it does improve and there are things we can do to feel empowered and elevate our wellness.  I told her my story and how I got started with essential oils and I'm so thankful for that opportunity.  

I believe in the power of the food I nourish my body with.  I look at food not only as sustenance, but a way to level up my wellness with every bite.  I love spending time in the kitchen because I love eating delicious food.  This weekend was filled with lots of banana blueberry muffins (Oh She Glows app!), black bean soup, noodle + broccoli dish, buffalo faux 'chicken' patties (with avocado + vegenaise, sooo good!) + kale chips, and tonight I'm planning a curry stew with naan bread.  A plant-based diet is not only incredible fuel for the mind + body, but super fuel for the soul as well.  

If you want to shift your energy, start by looking at what you're eating.  

I worked on the Bliss Out Guide more this week.  I set a goal for myself to finish it this month and I plan to stick to it.  I put on my headphones, play music that sings to my soul, and start typing away.  Of course, I sometimes spend 1/2 hour looking for the perfect photo and then my boys are up from nap, but at least I found that damn good picture ;)  I really can't wait to release it because it will be the heart of this space.  More on that soon!

Well, that just about sums it up.  I still need to grocery shop, but I'm waiting to see if my four-year-old decides to fight his nap, and wants to join me.  As much as I treasure nap times, I also love having his company when I shop.  

Hope you have a great rest of your weekend!

Heyyy!

I'm currently in the process of writing the Bliss Out Guide, and I want to share some of it through blog posts because it feels like the right way to delivery all that's on my heart.  I'm also finding writing again to feel so damn good.  I've missed it and I'm completely reminded why I used to blog.

Right now I'm in the middle of the chapter on mindset + feelings, so it should be no surprise that I'm letting emotion flow and reflecting on my desired feelings.  Because that's what it's all about for me.  Living in the a way that's true to how I want to feel.  

I start the chapter with what I think is one of the most important questions we could ever ask ourselves: 

If you had asked me that question 10 years ago, I would have told you that I wasn’t sure on any specifics, but I just hoped I was happy.  Honestly, if you asked me that question 20 years ago, I probably would have told you the same thing.  Happiness has always been my focus and driving force.  I’ve never truly felt that happiness came from material items.  Yes, I get excited about a new outfit, fresh makeup, books… but that deep routed happiness that sits in my heart and emanates from my soul, that certainly can’t be bought.  It has to be uncovered (and rediscovered) and built from within, and in my experience, involves conquering some bumpy roads along the way. 

If you asked me today what I want out of this life, I’d still tell you that I just want to be happy, but I would also boldly state that I want my health.  I used to take my health for granted.  Sometimes it takes the heartbreaking lesson of losing something (or feeling like it's lost), to know how much it means to you.  Also, it points out just how much everything else is dependent upon what feels lost.  It’s a painful lesson that leaves its mark. 

In the fall of 2016, I was hit with a vestibular condition (vestibular neuritis + vestibular migraines), and all it did was take.

It took away the security of living in my own body. 

It took away my sense of feeling grounded to the world I was living in. 

And it took away some happiness. 

However, it also presented me with a few surprising gifts. 

It offered me a shiny new perspective on my life. 

It gave me the opportunity to reevaluate how I would approach my health + wellbeing for the rest of my life.

And it sharpened my view of how precious this life is and how the moments were to be cherished.

I will continue to strive to uncover all that brings me happiness in my soul, and along the way, I will take a holistic approach to my health.  I will put my self-care routine as a top priority and open my heart, sharing + connecting with others doing the same thing.

From there, it's just the beauty of the journey.  Let's see where it takes us, but keep our driving force close, so that when we hit an unexpected turn, we'll still have our guiding light.

xoxo,
​Em

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