I started this book called The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck (A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life)…and I’m already hooked. It’s not about being indifferent and not caring about anything- it’s quite the opposite actually. It’s not putting energy in all the wrong places (whatever that means to you). For me that means that perfect image of life, perfect house, perfect job, perfect social media account… it all goes out the window. Not any place I want to give energy.
This last 19 months of dealing with a vestibular dysfunction has broken me…but actually I’m not so broken, I’m more remolded into…me. And I have tunnel vision looking at only what matters to me in this life.
“The desire for a more positive experience is itself a negative experience. And, paradoxically, the acceptance of one’s negative experiences is itself a positive experience.” Damn, that’s brilliant. It’s everything I’ve learned as I heal each and every day.
Regardless of what you’re going through (and if it is a vestibular dysfunction, man I feel for you), imagine if you didn’t compare it to someone else’s life, someone else’s social media feed, or your own perception of how your life should look.
What if you just looked at your life and thought, well awesome… let’s ride through this beautiful storm and smile as the sun comes out.
Other news: Last night I read the Migraine Relief Plan and I’m diving in deep. The author totally gets it when it comes to vestibular symptoms and while I’ve been following a very clean diet, there are certainly foods I love that could be triggers (heyyy avocados + nuts, my bffs), so we’ll see how cutting them out goes. I truly believe I was hit with vestibular neuritis and now I’m dealing with vestibular migraines and/or cervicogenic headache/dizziness. And two years ago I had no idea what any of this was, so there ya go! I plan to keep sharing as it’s therapeutic for me, but I want others to know that life goes on even with a vestibular dysfunction (and there’s happiness and joy as well, promise).
For other posts on my vestibular disorder, visit here.
So, how are you?